Riding The Waves of Emotions Day 6

Today has been a see-saw day of emotions in this battle against the enemy in the Garden. After having my church pray for me last night and feeling very loved by the Body of Christ, it served to comfort me, but also notify the enemy the warriors are on the hill battling with me. My beautiful friend Sue Chamberlain recently shared her journey (twice) through cancer. She said, “One of the most important lessons is not to swallow the emotions in the everyday duties in life, but to flow with them, even when family does not understand the inner emotions of a body out of control.” I am not one to share the deep things of the mind when toilets still need to be cleaned, and dishes washed, and beds made. To admit those mundane daily chores are suddenly an important part of staying sane is insane. Who does that? It is our God given nature that wants everything to stay the same, but gives mixed signals to the emotions between fear and faith. What this does to the body is to cause an inner earthquake that brings guilt and anger at life not being fair, followed by faith and confidence in a loving and good God who only brings life and life abundantly. Oh well, tomorrow is soon to come, life goes on and the rational emotions of living in a screwed up world will return tomorrow for at least another day. So I found a rope and tied a knot and am hanging on to the mundane.